dishearten

These few days have been shedding too much tears. Shedded too much tears for the kids especially Deborah.

People tell me she is just a kid, yes, i totally agree and sometimes we ourselves can never imagine how actualli children can drive you up the wall compared to adults. Those with no children is easier said then done.

Basically Deborah don even know what is called "respect", "manners", "listen and obey" She really cannot submit to authority.

I now can only keep praying for her to have a change in her attitude. Only God can change such stubborn people.

As for adults, they basically sometimes don even talk sense at all, when met with problem, they shun responsibilty, only know how to quarrel over spilt milk. What is the point?

God give us a brain to analyze things. Anyway, those who who don understand things, YOU ASK, don doubt or make wild gusses and start blaming and accusing the wrong people.

I really feel very hurt this week.

I think i myself falling into depression soon. Then who can understand? Only those who are very ke lian?
Saturday, January 30, 2010

From now on, I have wash my hands off totally from Deborah. VINz is now totally incharge of Deborah. I have given up already.

Forever telling lines.

this morning, jireh found that his story book was not in his bag. The children were suppose to bring storybook everyday for silent reading. And so he ask deborah if she took his book and she said "NO i didnt take" and she claimed that she took it from the shelf. The started quarrelling at the lift.

Then I questioned Deb and ask her abt the storybook, she kept insisting that she took from the shelf. but after a firm scolding, then she told the truth. She admitted that she took from Jireh's bag. After knowing the truth, she told another lie to defend herself very quickly, she then made up a story and accused Jireh for taking her book.

I immediately asked her to open her bag, she was reluctant initially but finally she opened it. Jireh's book was indeed in her bag.

Jireh then went to school without a storybook. Imagine if Jireh didnt found out earlier that his book was missing and during silent reading then knew about the missing book, he would have been punish by teacher. How would Jireh feel?

I feel sorry for Jireh. this is not the first time and VINz has already caught her red-handed before opening Jireh's bag.

so how to teach again? Those reading this, advise then.
Friday, January 29, 2010

Tired...

Just last week, Deborah refuse to learn her spelling and this week also the same. No matter how we ground her to learn also no use. Whatever ways we have use, be it soft or hard. It just doesnt work. I just don understand why she is so stubborn.

Last week, her daddy had to use the cane to get her to learn spelling, this week, her daddy is on reservist and so she totally cant be bothered. should i just let her be and she do nwhat she like?

last week, She realized she didnt learn her spelling and so she said she doesnt want to go to school. Called her school teacher to inform her about Deb's behaviour and help me to coach her. I am really very tired in teaching her. when comes to studies, she seems not bothered. She's also very dependent on people to tell her the answers in her daily work.

What should i do? sigh....


Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Vinz has left for reservist and so this week is an extremly busy week. The task have been laid down. I am praying for God's strength this week
Monday, January 25, 2010

we have grown up

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Raising Godly children...

For these two years, with the little seeds i have sown in both the kids life brings joy to my heart as i see how Jireh and Deborah loves the Lord each day. Seeing them going for Sunday school classes and learning God's word in their life is something which ease my heart as a sister.

Though they are not my own children, i cant really say I treat them like my own children but more of treating them like my own brother and sister.

i see Jireh and Deborah have grown in the Lord and they can even now independently pray for things like for themselves and also for their mum. Especially Deborah who is a prayer warrior, she can pray for half an hour and if you don tell her to stop, she can go on and on. it's really interesting of her sometimes.

Jireh reads the bible himself and he would also relate the story to me sometimes. depending on his mood though.

I am still praying very hard especially for Deborah as i know the toughest in this family is to educate her and also managing her behaviour.

Please for those who are reading this blog, please keep praying for Vinz, the kids and myself. We are seriously praying for a breakthru.

Love begins

I have finally start up a blog to keep it as a form of diary about my parenting joys and struggles. Although I am not married and doesnt have kid of my own but I already have to treasures at home.

In the beginning, it was really a stuggle to accept someone I love with two kids because i know I will be tied down with two of them. Accepting them means to share my time with them and my boyfriend.

i face LOTS and LOTS of scarcastic remarks from people around me and best of all, I even lost some close friends coz they think I am so naive in my actions.

i went thru lots of struggles but yet people don see it, they don understand. They like to make statements like:
"why you date a divorcee"
"you got looks and you can find a better guy"
"dun let him ruin your future"
"you are too naive"
" you are finding trouble"

the list just goes on and on........... but still, i have made up my mind and I also use a same answer to them, Divorcee is not a Murderer. he is not a convict, people like you all like to make such comments and simply cast these people out.

That is where it all begins in 17 Feb 2008. We journey till this day and i never regret. I am glad I have GOD's love to fill in for past 2 yrs.

I am glad God have been merciful with us and i can see GOD is slowly changing this man. Just never cease in my prayers...

GOD is LOVE and LOVE is GOD.
Saturday, January 23, 2010